24th days

it's been 24th days since we broke up, but my heart is still bleeding. It's too much for me to let go, i mean think about the past 4 years. We fucking made it from bp to sg. I know you deleted everything related to me on fb. Tonight i checked my own fb timeline then i notice u deleted everything, how cruel are you to delete all the memories, you don't even left the memories to me. I hate you yet love you so much , i had been drinking myself to forget you these days. I TRIED to forget you but i just can't. I wonder what made you change your mind , you just changed so sudden and all the mean words. It kills me. This is not the first time we broke up but this is the last i guess? the way you act is very different this time. At first i'm very confident to get you back but time just kills me, it's been the third weeks already i know i got no chance already. Im so curious how do you forget me in such short time. please teach me. im not a fuckboy im very loyalty to the girl i love but you shown me  loyalty isn't important anymore. Probably other guy accompany u when i playing games? it sucks to get potong jalan. I just cant believe all this happened but what happened has already happened. As of today i still hope that you'll come back to me eventhou its the different person anymore. All the facebook post shows my feeling these days. I decided to start writing blog because i hope that one day you'll know how i feel. You are like a murderer, you killed me. I have died everynight, yes i cried. All the accompany i got these days but it doesnt help to forget you. You are like a big part in my heart. I guess i'll need a very long time to forget you. Even times are hard but once i forget you i know im a strong person. Oh about the rose, i know you'll probably throw away after leaving me but thanks, atlease you accepted the rose. what a life. I actually think of dying last week but thanks of all the consultant and accompany. Dylan says, she fuck up your life why not fuck her's also? with all the pictures. You know im not the kind of person. yes we broke up but im still protecting u secretly. Hy says if she's really yours then she'll be back, just the matter of time.Yeah i accepted it already. Probably you'll be back in like 3 years? not sure if i will still be the same person as now.