25th days

It's the 25th days. Still drinking myself to sleep. I dream of u walking away with another guy while waiting outside BK in the morning then i woke up instantly. I'm so sad when i dream of that . Also did some research why do i dream of someone, online says that i might fall asleep when thinking of that person or i'm just stressed. To be honest i don't want you to go away with other guys, i cant imagine what's mine is now others. I have never hurt this much, that monday when i pass you breakfast you smiled and i tot i got chance of getting you back but after you back class and text feels like a completely different person. You are so cruel and mean. I asked you whether u wanna run away with me during second break i actually wanna bring u to marina barrage like we used to but things came out the other way. You refused and rejected me, im so depressed then i partial and went back home. And that's my first F grade ever in RP. If you're facing problem please tell me even i might not be able to solve it but i promise you won't face it alone. I mean how can you suddenly stopped loving me everything is so deep ( atlease for me ). I dont wanna accept the truth that you're not mine anymore. I know im not a good bf but hey i already changed, fyi i quitted playing games i swear if u come back i can give you my 24/7 now already but i guess it's too late? last monday (p13) when im waiting for the elevator and you pass by tbh i got shocked by you haha maybe your too hot for me? eye candy maybe? after like almost 4 years you are still shocking me haha

I watched 春嬌與志明 today. I hope that my story will be like that lol. For me i guess im hooked by you like forever? not sure about you. maybe im nothing to you already haha so naive of me. Hope you'll found this blog and read all of them someday because that's how i feel. I will be writing a new one as long as i felt emotional every night. Goodnight btw i still #27 you.