84th days

17/4/2016 10:39 PM
17/4/2016 11:47 PM


Heyyyy, wassupp nigga. Tomorrow school liao yipeee so excited hoho so excited to wear my new shoe haha. How have you been recently? so long nvr see you already. Last sem still go jb buy new shirt preparing for new sem haha the difference between half years is alot. For me, the half years ago is happier for me but i don't know for you probably happier now ba. I got so many question in my head and all of them is regarding you =3=, so many what ifs but none of them i have the guts to ask :( . I don't know if i'm doing the right things but i just got no idea what to do. Finally after like 2 months i have to keep my comp, for the first time i'm so happy to keep my comp lol haha. Wish i was still your boy so i can go school together with you, everytime i wait u outside bk when you reach i always smile when i saw you HAHAHA yi jian ni jiu xiao. TBH i have never thought of this day of losing you =3= but the choice is your's right? so what i can do is change your mind HAHAHA restore brain back to 1 years ago hahha typical IT nerd. Starting tomorrow i want to chiong for my whole sem (sunglasses emoji) targeting gpa 2.0 huehuehue. Since i have no gf and not gaming anymore what else can i do right? study la sial hahaha

Okay, here's the plan hahaha. I used to choose Gaming and Girlfriend so i suck at grades, but Girlfriend ran away and i stopped Gaming so the only choice i got is Good Grades hahaha. I know you don't Gaming, not sure you have a bf anot but please do well with your studies haha i want to see you graduate with >2.x gpa harr. I might have been the burden for you previously but since i'm not around anymore so please do well. It says choose two so i choose Good Grades and Girlfriend(only if it's clxj) still got filter one horr. Trust me i don't gaming as hard as i used to before, it's a lie if i completely stopped. I play once like in 3 to 5 days, will quit slowly. I hope it isn't too late to save my grades starting year 3 HAHAHA. Sometimes i wonder if some random ppl over the internet in other country found this blog what will they think if he/she read all my post. Will they think like WTF this guy still not giving up after they broke up or will they think aww this guy is so cute or whatsoever fck hahaha That's why i want the ability to read someone's heart so that i can see whether the door on your heart is still open for me =3= i'm so scare of being locked outside :(

North - Picture Of You
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Girl, I'm thinking of you
And I don't know what to do
Let me see into your mind
Only you can decide
Do u see in me a change?
Got me whispering your name
What is there in your heart?
Tell me right from the start, I love you
And I'm thinking about you
Got me singing my, my, my, my
Please be mine

Coz I've got a picture of you in my heart
And a vision of you in my arms
And I just can't deny what's going
On in my soul and I
I can't let u walk away
Till you hear what I got to say
I love u more, more
More than the air I breathe

How would I know if you're feeling what I'm feeling
I can only hope that you're thinking what I'm thinking
Of you
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I can't deny that i still have feeling for you and still love you but what i can do is probably...wait? Even i myself don't know what am i waiting for. Hoping you'll see a change in me that i changed basically all the things you hate in me, because you're more important than my habits. I wish i can really take my heart out and show it to you, you'll see yourself all over it. Of course i respect you as always and your decision, I don't mind trying even i can predict the answer i'll get is a NO. I believe you can see all my effort and not giving up spirits, which differentiate me from others huehuehue. I believe there's still chance for me as we're still under the same sky and standing on the same land. Please tell me all this is just a test of faith =3= did i pass it if it is? haha. Well, i have got really cute ideas in my mind but one day i'll do it hahaha. Okayy laa, time to sleep liaoo, gudnai yo wunda women ai lep yu #27. Sleep earlier, don't get insomnia again yo so don't get late for school.

BTW, if you really can't sleep, listen to this Enya playlist. It really helps in sleeping.
Enya - The very best of Enya

If still doesn't work, bo bian have to use the traditional darren ways already. (wechat sese emoji) HAHAHA if you know what i mean =3=. Okay goodnight, love you.

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