29/4/2016 8:29 PM
Hii, how are you doing? Hope your doing good. School is so boring without you :( eh no I mean Singapore is so boring without you. Eh is life is so boring without you. Everyday is so boring, at school got nothing to do then at home also nothing to do at most go see AV and fap then nothing to do again haha. I'm so dying of boredom =3= . It's so stupid how time can change stuff, 1 year ago I was still texting you hang out and shit but 1 year after? Friend?nope enemy?nope stranger? Yes. It's killing me that the person I love become a stranger in such short time. I cannot take it when I still loving that person and she choose to stay stranger with me 😭 Atlease can we be friend? I don't know how to stop loving you. Actually what happened? Can you tell me exactly what happened? Truth hurts, I know but it hurts more when the person you love decides to stay stranger with you. I love you and I'll accept all of you, I don't mind if there's something that would hurt me or anything. I can't stop myself from thinking of you, I've got 2 type of mood. First is when I plug in my earphone I listen to hard rock then the another is listening to some really sad songs. There's one word to explain what am I feeling currently *Saudade* . It's a Brazilian or Portugal word which means missing or longing for someone you love that left you and you know they'll never come back again. I still can't accept the fact that how happy we are back in the days and this is how we ended? Hell no please. We broke up several times but we ended up patch back because the love is still there. How about this time? I want us to last because I'm too lazy to start anew with some other girls and I just want you. I have seen your brightest and even darkest side and I accepted it, I accept you for who you are. Girl trust me my love and longing for you is definitely true. What can I do to make you love me? What can I do to make you care? I made a stupid mistakes and it seems we're more far apart now? Whatever the truth is, I don't care I just want you. Everytime I saw you im like can we time travel please? You probably might not know how much you mean to me but let me tell you. You're the only girl I ever wanted. Being faithful is not easy, look at how many bitches out there. But being faithful is easy when you only have eyes for the one girl. Trust me, I really loves you. Why can't we start again? What have I do to make you hate me so much? So I assume you're not in a relationship currently but wtf why can't you let me try? You'll eventually see whether did I give in efforts. I admit I doubted you but I just can't stop myself from overthink I hate myself sometime. Just my stupid mistake, caused me so much? The consequences is too much for me to take 😔 . I love you and I miss you so much. Sometimes I just wanna lie on the ground look up in the skies wishing upon the start that you give me a chance. Whatever you don't like about me, I change. Look you don't like me play games, I quitted really. If I can quit over my addiction what else can't I do? Wanna know the reason why I got my tattoo? Because you're part of the reason. I can write on my skins which sticks with me permanently until I die, what else I won't do? Even I myself also don't know why I love you so much probably because you gave me so much. You gave me everything, love me when I couldn't love myself. I just want you. I know the time is so wrong to be in love but I just want you, even for a months or weeks. I can't sleep well feeling like I lost a part of me everynight. I really miss you so much and I sorry for what I ever did, the consequences is so much but can it end now? Because I'm punished already. At first I know I'm getting you back, but situation got out of hand. It's out of control now. Are we too young to talk about love? I made a stupid mistake and I'm so regret now. Can you come back and let me cherish you =3= I know things don't work like this but I just don't know what to do and even how it works. All I want is you, the feelings when I'm beside you. Even just sitting silently beside you I feel so happy that I got you. So sorry I misunderstood stuff, I can't control myself =3= . Please, this is not how we end can? I know you probably hate me but I'll wait for you. Trust me , I only want you.
Labrinth - Jealous
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I'm jealous of the rainThat falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
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I've always been you number one fans. I got jealous of everything, everyone that closes to you. I don't know how complicated this gets, but i still want you. When we just broke up, i know you wanted something new because i'm just not that good and shitty. Then i tell myself you'll come back to me when you find it was no good. But what happened? It seems that you're so happy :( i should have been happy for you because you're happy. I always wanted you to be happy.. be happy with me. I know i'm not this kind of people who would say such stuff but, i'm jealous of you being happy without me :( . Not only jealous but envy as well because i'm not happy at all, how can i even be happy without you =3=. Online says that if a girl cry for you, she really care about you. If a boy cry for you, he really loves you. I really love you la sial. What can i do? I'm so afraid of really losing you.
Okay, time to say goodnight to you again. Goodnight wonderwoman, i love you so much. I MISS YOU #27.
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